Sizeee

weight has always always ALWAYS bothered me. When I was little I was a chub from like... 8 too 13. When I reached 13 I grew and all that jazz. I love skinny girls and chubby boys. Skinny boys just scare me. Sine I was 13 i've weighed 135 and been 5'9. Recently this year ive gained 15 pounds!!! Heaviest ive ever been in my life. It does make me sad to be heavier. I was just used to being thinner. I would like myself alot more (i love myself but i would love myself even more) if I was my normal weight or smaller. I dont know really know. I guess weighing a certain amount shoudnt matter. But too me it does.

First

My first crush was in first grade. I loved a boy names Mickey! hahah. He was short and scrawny and i liked him on and off til 5th grade. Isnt first grade a little young to like boys? Maybe not I dont know I think it is. But thats a first

may 6th how to tackle sleeplessness

i dont know how to over power my sleepless self. I cant sleep at all. I never am able to sleep.
i love sleep.

Places

My project im picking India.

Mac- up

MAC is really expensive too. Classy choice! I've thought about the transformation make up gives you. I like, but then a again i dont. I think it depends on who you are. I think some girl look better when they dont wear make up. It vary's I guess.

postsecret.

Post secret origanally started off as a book. I read the first book three years ago while i was waiting for my flight in a portland terminal. There's a bunch of things i think but never say too people. I dont say it because i know it'll cause unnesccary conflict. People are stupid and naive.
I liked postsecret before it became a website and a fad you could say...
idk.

Apil 29th Progress blog

for today, I'd like you to write about someone that you know and care about in life (could even be you) whose life is still in process, but they perhaps have made PROGRESS.

My brother evan, He's turning 15 friday. We celebrated his birthday dinner last night because my grandpa was in town on buisness in mpls and it was the only night we could see him. It was really great to see my grandfather. We never get to see him because he lives in Michigan. It was a great time. Me, my mom, my little brother Hayden, Evan (ofcourse) his friend Alex,my moms bf Dan, my papa and my boyfriend Alex all went to Ichibons. Ichibons is a japanese steak house on Nicollet in down town mpls. I've been there before. It was sooo goooood! I order my favorite plate of sushi. Too good.

So yeah, my brother is having a difficult time in school. Not doing bad or anything, but he's having a hard time understanding the concept of school and learning like, chemistry and weird math and all that. So he doesn't really want to try. He plays hockey and I hope next school year he gets on varsity for Tartan. He's a great kid. My mother raised us kids good. He's polite, and very caring. I love him so much. But yeah, he's still progressing but right now i cant tell which direction he's going in. As long as im around (wich i will be for his entire life:]) he'll be in line! haha or my family and I will try our best.