Sizeee

weight has always always ALWAYS bothered me. When I was little I was a chub from like... 8 too 13. When I reached 13 I grew and all that jazz. I love skinny girls and chubby boys. Skinny boys just scare me. Sine I was 13 i've weighed 135 and been 5'9. Recently this year ive gained 15 pounds!!! Heaviest ive ever been in my life. It does make me sad to be heavier. I was just used to being thinner. I would like myself alot more (i love myself but i would love myself even more) if I was my normal weight or smaller. I dont know really know. I guess weighing a certain amount shoudnt matter. But too me it does.

First

My first crush was in first grade. I loved a boy names Mickey! hahah. He was short and scrawny and i liked him on and off til 5th grade. Isnt first grade a little young to like boys? Maybe not I dont know I think it is. But thats a first

may 6th how to tackle sleeplessness

i dont know how to over power my sleepless self. I cant sleep at all. I never am able to sleep.
i love sleep.

Places

My project im picking India.

Mac- up

MAC is really expensive too. Classy choice! I've thought about the transformation make up gives you. I like, but then a again i dont. I think it depends on who you are. I think some girl look better when they dont wear make up. It vary's I guess.

postsecret.

Post secret origanally started off as a book. I read the first book three years ago while i was waiting for my flight in a portland terminal. There's a bunch of things i think but never say too people. I dont say it because i know it'll cause unnesccary conflict. People are stupid and naive.
I liked postsecret before it became a website and a fad you could say...
idk.

Apil 29th Progress blog

for today, I'd like you to write about someone that you know and care about in life (could even be you) whose life is still in process, but they perhaps have made PROGRESS.

My brother evan, He's turning 15 friday. We celebrated his birthday dinner last night because my grandpa was in town on buisness in mpls and it was the only night we could see him. It was really great to see my grandfather. We never get to see him because he lives in Michigan. It was a great time. Me, my mom, my little brother Hayden, Evan (ofcourse) his friend Alex,my moms bf Dan, my papa and my boyfriend Alex all went to Ichibons. Ichibons is a japanese steak house on Nicollet in down town mpls. I've been there before. It was sooo goooood! I order my favorite plate of sushi. Too good.

So yeah, my brother is having a difficult time in school. Not doing bad or anything, but he's having a hard time understanding the concept of school and learning like, chemistry and weird math and all that. So he doesn't really want to try. He plays hockey and I hope next school year he gets on varsity for Tartan. He's a great kid. My mother raised us kids good. He's polite, and very caring. I love him so much. But yeah, he's still progressing but right now i cant tell which direction he's going in. As long as im around (wich i will be for his entire life:]) he'll be in line! haha or my family and I will try our best.

8 playlist of my life in youtube vids

"Take it easy (love nothing) by Bright eyes:

This song was my life when i was 13 to 15.


"Dont push" The Exit



"Inhalent abuse" by Heavy heavy low low



"Fireworks" by Animal collective



"Drug buddy" Anthony green (lemon heads cover)



"Ebolarama" by everytime i die



"slow night so long" kings of leon



"the cold, the dark, the silence" by seawolf

My future plans to get some income

1. My first Idea is becoming a local stylist. Like style teenagers and stuff in minnesota. MY idea is I get ahold of some people in dire need of a wardrobe i tell them im an aspiring stylist for people and photoshoots. They'll hopefully agree, They give me a budget of what ever amount of money and i go get them clothes after studying their current style. I'd charge by how much gas money it took to get to the stores and bus money it took then add like 10 bucks an hour i spend shopping. I'd guess youd just have to trust me not too rip you off. So like three days of shopping for two hours each day would be like, $60 mathmatically. But ill cut that down too $40. I dont want too be exspensive. It shouldnt cost alot too look good. But it does in some cases.


2. My second idea is too buy and sell little cute things. Like little hello kitty do dads and cute antiques i find and such. Create an online store. I LOVE little cute things. that would be really fun. I could also sell things to websites and stuff. 0oooh ne@t.

Beauty

This week I wanted us to do some work with Flickr and their annotations/notes button, but to start it off, we'll do something visual to get in the swing of things. First, describe to me your concept of beauty. What is beautiful to you? Who is beautiful to you? What does beautiful sound, smell and taste like? Do you believe in inner beauty? Do you believe a person becomes more beautiful with time and why?

Then, I want you to post 7 pictures you find on the internet that represent beauty to you. Each of them needs to represent some category or idea of beauty that you subscribe to. Then, you need to post 3 written representations of beauty, whether they be poems, stories, songs or more. For each posting, please describe what element of beauty you are representing. I should be able to surmise a 3-dimensional idea of beauty from your postings and writings

- I too , love the saying " Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" because it is so true. What someone may think is hideous another may find ravishing and beautiful. Beauty too me is favored self expression. By favored self expression i mean my favored forms of self expression like; tattoos, piercings etc. I find those things attractive.
Who is beautiful to me?
- leona lewis, big,blonde orange broads, small petite bland girls and boys. It all varies. Its hard to go on flickr and find images of people i find attractive. I hate when i think of things randomly but i can never do it on the spot. Certain hair cuts make people more or less attractive to me.
Inner beauty ofcoarse exisits.

april 23rd

o here I am perusing Twiggy's Citypages copy of the Best of the Twin Cities. It says the best local blog is www.culturebully.com. Let's all go check it out and report back!


I checked this out for just a little bit it mostly came across as a music blog. Not really local music? I saw more national artists and bigger shows.

april 24th question

Today's question: Did you attend last night's art show and will you be involved with this weekend's art crawl?

-I really really wish i wouldve been able to go to last nights art show. Getting rides to stpaul is difficult for me and my little brother had a choir concert at his school from 5-7pm. I have yet too hear how it was. I'm pretty bummed i missed it:/
I will be attedning the artcrawl! I'm excited. its my first year too. I think saturday ill be there. Today i will volunteer too.

To your way of thinking, how important is the publication and selling of one's artwork?
-I think it depends on your living situation. If I understand the question correctly that is.

How validating is it to be in a show or have a piece purchased?
-I've never sold a piece of my work. I hope to sell my 5 prints at art crawl. But to be in a show, its a nice sense of accomplishment id say. I've been in two shows this year and one last year for my graphic design and photography.

To be a working artist, what sort of compromises must you make, if any, when it comes to your arts integrity and uniqueness?
i have yet to find out!

earthday

So, let's hear it, in what ways are you an eco-friendly person?
I dont litter. I recylce and so does my family. My mom buys eco friendly cleaning supply.

How is your life a little bit green?
I notice now, it has become a trend to "be green". Which is good but none the less annoying. trendy hipsters going vegan and hippie bothers me. But as long as its cleaning up the earth its toreable for now.

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Youth and young manhood

Kings of leon. I'm sure now, most of you know this band or have heard of them. due to their explosive new album "Only by night" Id be surprised if you knew their music from their first album released in 2003 called "Youth and Young manhood" This was the album I fell in love with. KOL was my favorite band for years I knew EVERYTHING there was too know. I discovered them in 2004 from a rolling stone magazine. Yadda yadda yadda blah blah.
I HATE THEIR NEWEST ALBUM. I despise it. I really wish they sounded like their older stuff. Now their audience is so... old and gross. I hate it. There's no more youth and freedom in their songs, just primped and proper. I hate it and anyone who likes it. I feel like the newer audience doesnt and will never know the underlying layer of KOL. The raw, southern boys they were and no longer are. Gah.

a new day post

So, what was your first childhood memory? : Reading the giving tree. Or having someone read the giving tree to me. I cried and felt emotion. so young i think i was like 4 or 5? Also I believe my very first memory was my dad sitting in a practice space with his friend's and ordering pizza and someone hitting on the delivery girl. real talk.

Separating your current feelings about your parents from that time of your life, what do you recall about your parents from that time of life? my mom was very kind warm hearted. She always told me current events. The news and she would play with me and lay with me. Read and rub my back. She was wonderful. My dad was strict and but loved to laugh and play jokes on my brother and i. He would teach us games that would also teach us to count or read. You know the ole clever parenting games are educational stuff. they were great. Atleast in my adolescent mind.

420... brah

Columbine changed how schools run, how teachers think, how students are perceived and treated. How do you think your life has been impacted by school violence?
It's impacted my life because i have too always wonder if my school is safe enough. I have to watch out for "weird" unhappy individuals and do something about kids getting pick on. I just think its stupid that kids resort to such a permanant punishment for their fellow students that tease them. Also school administration should pay attention too bullying in school. I was teased in elementary and middle school but i never once though about actually killing someone. Parents should teach their kids too be strong.

I know that 4/20 is not only know for Columbine. What other significance does it hold for you and why?
Not too me, but most of the world: 4/20 is national weed smoking day? I think? I dont celebrate it. I was sleeeping yesterday. And 4/20 is also hitlers bday or deathday? idk really. None of these are significant to my beliefs.

april 19th blog post

I'd like to hear from each of you what your ideal date would be. What would be the coolest way to be pursued or asked out?
The coolest way I would think would be seeing your intrest playing a show or something and him or her asking you out on stage infront of a lot of people. haha. yeah.
What puts you off and what intrigues you?
If someone justs asks me if i want to "go out" with them it puts me off. I think the term "go out" is middle school worthy.

Spring!

I am so much happier and peppy(ier?) now that the weather is finally nice outside. It feels so good to walk around in the nice warm sun in a t shirt. My bike is still at luis's aunts house in woodbury. I really want to ride around on it. I hope ill get it back but getting ahold of luis is so hard. Finding a new bike is tricky (tricky to find a bike that i like).
Hopefully ill get my old bike back.

Present day job searching vs. Mom's

Its been a whole year of job searching for me. And ive had only two interviews.
Every month ive applied sporadically to places around oakdale and woodbury. Horrible luck. The fact that i dont have my own phone and no liable transportation sucks too. But what sucks the most is my mom constantly on my ass about not trying hard enough to get a job. Keep in mind I have no prevoius work expirience at all. She tell's me she has to tell me to go out and get a job and that i dont try. but when i go out and apply places with out her asking she gets on my ass about something else. I CAN NEVER WIN. So she gives me this feeling of infinate failure and then I just dont want to try anymore. Like, Fuck you Fuck off im going to go be a bum. I really do. It's so annoying to here EVERY DAY (and i am NOT exaggerating, its literally EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE FOR THE PAST YEAR) to here someone bring you down all the time saying you dont try, when ive tried. Not wanting to work at fucking mcdonalds isnt not trying when you applied and fucking philly dawgz in sunray.
AND THE ECONMOY... 40, 50 year olds are getting laid off and competing for regular teen aged jobs. Teenagers are competeting with adults with years of work expierence under their belts!! I've never had a job.
Cmon now...


www.boston.com

How are you and your teachers alike?
We're artists in some form.
How are you and your teachers different?
they are educators, i am the educated (educatE?)
What skills and talents do you have in common?
listening and learning
What talents and knowledge does your generation have that your parents and teachers might lack?
EXTREME TECHNOLOGIES!


I could live without technology, i just wouldn't be as comfortable as before with technology of the present day.

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1. Complete my g.e.d. by november of 2009
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2. get married before age 25
1 person
3. road trip around the states
4 people
4. go to india
1,000 people
5. call people i love more
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good blogging response

I read the information about "What is a blog?" and I had already knew what a blog was previously before this class and the last class i took. I dont really like personal blogs, like, people writing about small details in their life. I suppose that's why i dont follow blogs ever besides fashion blogs.
OBsessing is kind of scary to me.. Like, reading a blog about hating on hilary clinton. Your obsesssed and take time out of your day to talk shit about someone/something. Or you love something so much you sacrifice other things you could be doing to blog... it's just weird too me.
I like school blogging though because you can respond like homework and stuff. And get your assignment when your not at school.
I also like it because of the subject matter, you can see what other students have too say.

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Fourth Quarter Introduction

My name is Faith, which everyone in here knows. I aspire to travel and live freely.
I'm taking the class because I like writing in this format (blog).
I hope by taking this class I will learn to write more in depth and become a more descriptive writer because I am a minimal writer/ artist and I favor minimal/simple/blunt in general. I also hope to start a story and finish it complete with illustrations by the end of this term. I feel this class will help me exercise my grammar and volcabulary.

Self

Self evaluation:
As writer I think i did grow a little bit. I managed to write a poem freely with out being assigned to. I wouldn't have normally done that. I feel i did moderately well writing and following direction. Even though I didnt understand some assignments at times. I wrote what i thought was write and enough for myself to be satisfyed with the amount of things i wrote.

? Sound track

I just glanced at Jordan's blog about the soundtrack to his life at the moment. I didn't know we were supposed to blog about that. I some how repetitively overlook these assignments.

1. DO IT! - Death from above 1979
2. Daylight - Matt and Kim
3. Jumpin Jumpin remix w/ lil bow wow - DESTINYS CHILD
4. Happy melted city - black moth super rainbow
5. I'm a hog for you - Screaming lord sutch
6. sunshowers - M.I.A.
7. Chairman of the bored - Crass
8. Lust - The raveonettes
9. Saint John - Cold war kids
10. John wayne was a nazi - MDC





tah dah!

sad little willow tree

tall and wide,
branches so long they collide into ground
willow tree so sad
feels lower then ground.
Only when the wind blows
free branches sore in air


tall and wide.

6 word challenge

Obama needs to invest in alertanive- energy.

Alternative energy is one word.... ;]

Vision statement

I feel our school's vision statement applied to its students maybe a couple years ago but certainly not now. "A community of artist's learning together" ...
I think a vision statement is a laid out "rule" to know. A mold to fit into sort of. Who's in charge or realizing that vision? Who's ever in charge of the certain "program" / community or what ever I suppose.

The color red

A phobia (from Greek: φόβος, phobos, "fear"), is an irrational, intense, persistent fear of certain situations, activities, things, or people. The main symptom of this disorder is the excessive, unreasonable desire to avoid the feared subject. - wikipedia.org

Potential, similiar phobias. Nothing serious.

Amaxophobia- Fear of riding in a car

Febriphobia or Fibriphobia or Fibriophobia- Fear of fever

I found two phobias I would have if my fears got to out of control. I wanted to research phobias because it's truly amazing how many crazy phobias their are out there. I found fear's of gold, fish, sermons, gays and fear of the color red. I cant imagine living with a phobia. The things youd have to do to avoid and do..
I have a small fear of riding in cars. Only because I always think an on coming car is going to hit us. When I'm in a car i cant sleep or look out the window without watching the cars pass by. I don't trust any drivers judgement. This has been going on since I was about 13. There was no car accident i was involved in too make me feel this way. All of sudden one day in the car I just got paranoid. In long car rides I cant fall asleep in a moving car because I'm too busy watching the on coming traffic. I guess its not that big of deal but it's still nerve racking and annoying sometimes.
My second fear I found was 'fear of fever'. I have a fear of the flu but only around flu season. I used to get the flu every winter for as long as i can remember. The stomach pains I get are literally unbareable. I remember one year they were so bad I wanted to get a kitchen knife and stab my stomach so it would stop. I fear those stomach pains so much. I haven't had the flu for two years now So i know its right around the corner which is terrifying.

Imagery desensitizing seems to be the only treatment for phobias.


I wish i was born with antlers.

Change continued.

I'm slowly succsesfully changing my "mean" attitude around. Instead of being super sarcastic during a conversation or say names I just keep myself quiet and observe. I'd say its working out well.
....
Thats really about it. Changing the way I talk and how I act in a more positive way.

...

How will i go about changing my old habits to fulfill my new goal? Just concoiusly not be a bitch i suppose. Help with chores for my mom. Do what im asked with out complaining. No negitive commentary. That sort of thing.


As for another research project... idk.

Break recitation:

Last night I couldn't sleep because my sleep pattern is now completely thrown off. So I took a short look at the newest blog that was for today. I read the T.S. eliot quote. I really liked it "to make an and is to make a beginning" Last year is over now its time to completely start new if you wanted too. I want to. I told myself the only way to change the things i don't like is too do it myself and to stop watching things go past me.

My break was really good and much needed. I met good people. I made new friends and i spent time with old friends. I hardly ever get too see luis anymore so this break i was with him everyday I remembered why he's my best friend and why other people will never be. My friend alexander was visiting from l.a. all break too so i saw plenty of him which I'm so thankful for. The first week of break i spent appropriatly with my family. And then the second week i was out and about as usual. New years was insane and so unexpected. Lets just say my break was fabulous! Hahah. Real talk though.

My resolution this year is to try to be nicer, more polite and more tolerable with people. I think i can do it.


That is all.