Self

Self evaluation:
As writer I think i did grow a little bit. I managed to write a poem freely with out being assigned to. I wouldn't have normally done that. I feel i did moderately well writing and following direction. Even though I didnt understand some assignments at times. I wrote what i thought was write and enough for myself to be satisfyed with the amount of things i wrote.

? Sound track

I just glanced at Jordan's blog about the soundtrack to his life at the moment. I didn't know we were supposed to blog about that. I some how repetitively overlook these assignments.

1. DO IT! - Death from above 1979
2. Daylight - Matt and Kim
3. Jumpin Jumpin remix w/ lil bow wow - DESTINYS CHILD
4. Happy melted city - black moth super rainbow
5. I'm a hog for you - Screaming lord sutch
6. sunshowers - M.I.A.
7. Chairman of the bored - Crass
8. Lust - The raveonettes
9. Saint John - Cold war kids
10. John wayne was a nazi - MDC





tah dah!

sad little willow tree

tall and wide,
branches so long they collide into ground
willow tree so sad
feels lower then ground.
Only when the wind blows
free branches sore in air


tall and wide.

6 word challenge

Obama needs to invest in alertanive- energy.

Alternative energy is one word.... ;]

Vision statement

I feel our school's vision statement applied to its students maybe a couple years ago but certainly not now. "A community of artist's learning together" ...
I think a vision statement is a laid out "rule" to know. A mold to fit into sort of. Who's in charge or realizing that vision? Who's ever in charge of the certain "program" / community or what ever I suppose.

The color red

A phobia (from Greek: φόβος, phobos, "fear"), is an irrational, intense, persistent fear of certain situations, activities, things, or people. The main symptom of this disorder is the excessive, unreasonable desire to avoid the feared subject. - wikipedia.org

Potential, similiar phobias. Nothing serious.

Amaxophobia- Fear of riding in a car

Febriphobia or Fibriphobia or Fibriophobia- Fear of fever

I found two phobias I would have if my fears got to out of control. I wanted to research phobias because it's truly amazing how many crazy phobias their are out there. I found fear's of gold, fish, sermons, gays and fear of the color red. I cant imagine living with a phobia. The things youd have to do to avoid and do..
I have a small fear of riding in cars. Only because I always think an on coming car is going to hit us. When I'm in a car i cant sleep or look out the window without watching the cars pass by. I don't trust any drivers judgement. This has been going on since I was about 13. There was no car accident i was involved in too make me feel this way. All of sudden one day in the car I just got paranoid. In long car rides I cant fall asleep in a moving car because I'm too busy watching the on coming traffic. I guess its not that big of deal but it's still nerve racking and annoying sometimes.
My second fear I found was 'fear of fever'. I have a fear of the flu but only around flu season. I used to get the flu every winter for as long as i can remember. The stomach pains I get are literally unbareable. I remember one year they were so bad I wanted to get a kitchen knife and stab my stomach so it would stop. I fear those stomach pains so much. I haven't had the flu for two years now So i know its right around the corner which is terrifying.

Imagery desensitizing seems to be the only treatment for phobias.


I wish i was born with antlers.

Change continued.

I'm slowly succsesfully changing my "mean" attitude around. Instead of being super sarcastic during a conversation or say names I just keep myself quiet and observe. I'd say its working out well.
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Thats really about it. Changing the way I talk and how I act in a more positive way.

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How will i go about changing my old habits to fulfill my new goal? Just concoiusly not be a bitch i suppose. Help with chores for my mom. Do what im asked with out complaining. No negitive commentary. That sort of thing.


As for another research project... idk.

Break recitation:

Last night I couldn't sleep because my sleep pattern is now completely thrown off. So I took a short look at the newest blog that was for today. I read the T.S. eliot quote. I really liked it "to make an and is to make a beginning" Last year is over now its time to completely start new if you wanted too. I want to. I told myself the only way to change the things i don't like is too do it myself and to stop watching things go past me.

My break was really good and much needed. I met good people. I made new friends and i spent time with old friends. I hardly ever get too see luis anymore so this break i was with him everyday I remembered why he's my best friend and why other people will never be. My friend alexander was visiting from l.a. all break too so i saw plenty of him which I'm so thankful for. The first week of break i spent appropriatly with my family. And then the second week i was out and about as usual. New years was insane and so unexpected. Lets just say my break was fabulous! Hahah. Real talk though.

My resolution this year is to try to be nicer, more polite and more tolerable with people. I think i can do it.


That is all.